1. |
Monochrome
05:43
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Let me take a minute to shine some light
On a world forced into the devil's night
A page ripped straight from a storybook
Abandoned just enough to leave you hooked
I hope you trust me enough to give you some advice
When emotions cross you don't you dare think twice
My life is in shambles 'cause I paid the price
So when you're in my shoes don't roll the dice
I live my life in monochrome
Walking the wire
Inhaling blood until thrown in fire
Love unknown
A tragic desire
Your words unsaid when my soul conspires
Monochrome, all alone
A greyscale life we call our own
Monochrome, a weakness shown
The barren wasteland of my home
Don't forget to burn every bridge that you cross
The Lord may forgive but they do not
I see it in your heart, you're just like me
So can you make them feel some goddamn empathy?
It's not my bidding if we're one of the same
We could swap places and we'd still be playing their game
I still can't believe what I became
But since you're next to me help me walk through the flame
Man, it's the end of my world
Can't you give me a break?
I got a thousand problems
Can't handle one more mistake
Yes, I know it's my fault
Yes, I know I screwed up
But sometimes we all are the issue
And our minds are meant corrupt
Not known for troubleshooting
But I can write a song
Can't save my own life
But maybe help someone
A purpose, small but significant enough
To keep me going when life really gets rough
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2. |
Destiny
05:02
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Back in the day, when I was very young
They said I looked up to you, and you gave me a gun
Told them to throw me the bullets and set me free
Waiting for the day I'd turn to psychopathy
But what if I never pulled the trigger on you?
Would you pull it for me just to make the prophecy come true?
Nobody asked for my permission to ruin my life
They just told me to throw myself under the knife
Cursed hymns are calling me
To exact my descent
Who am I without destiny?
My final end
I know that you wanted to save me
I saw the hope in your lies
But without a chosen purpose I become lost
And wait to die
I'll die
Somebody in my head's been taunting me
Every second I decide to think I still can't see
That when the world is crumbling at my feet
I'm not above anyone,
Not even myself causing me to bleed
Years later, your words still strike my core
Everybody wants me dead but I'm ready for an encore
Let me make it clear I didn't want this any more
Than you few wretches in this hallow driven war
No one wants to talk to someone
Who overreacts as much as me
I tried so hard to make amends
With these broken people I tried to set free
But when you're living from the outside
You got to take some control for yourself
'Cause the world won't forgive you
No matter what, if you're destined for hell
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3. |
Parasite
06:27
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I'm living in a world of my own
Black wretchedness
And I can't seem to find where to go
To cure a loneliness
Broke down all the walls to my heart
To pry it out
So blood flows into the current
Of my tears throughout
Crying in the dark
Desolate in light
Waiting on a purpose
To find me tonight
Praying like an exorcist to find
Some slight chance of delight
Bargaining with death
Yet persuading life
Witches grant my wishes
Or save me with a knife
Instinctual rituals find me at
The climax of my strife
Primeval parasite
You leech onto my soul
Last night we stole the light
Now dark is all I know
Power glows, reflections of my agony
When you kill me
Set forth
A ritual of love
I wanna feel your warmth
Consume all of my blood
Let go, the river's running red
I'm buried alive and left for dead
A newfound wanting courses through my veins
I hear your smile
Meet this cage I've been living in
And stay a while
Mark me demon, and let me believe
This enchantment
Throw me, hurt me, let me weep
You have my consent
Offer me a killer, I'll
Heal in return
Living like a thriller
When oceans burn
There's fire in the river and
It's your turn
To feel my pain
Summon me a high of
Happiness
Terminate the source
Of my distress
Be with me when I will bear the sense
This is all your game
Echoes of a nightmare are chasing me
Running from the demon I set free
I'll live my life alone, until I'm gone
Creator of the monster found so near
Inside of the darkness God would fear
This vessel of my pain can't be undone
Thoughts in our mind of agony
Loveless, soulless husks
We're both the same, you and me
Below the sun
I found a love deeper than sin
Guess misery is wasted luck
Connected, both of us from within
Our burning dove
Echoes of a nightmare are chasing me
Running from the hellscape in my dreams
I'll burn, burn, burn,
Until I'm gone
Victim of the monsters found the deep
Sold to the horrors in my sleep
I'll burn, burn, burn
Until you're done
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4. |
Blood in the Water
05:51
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Trust me, it's ok
To regret your past
You think there's no way
Out but turning back
But I've been there before
I read the book
So don't tell me your lies
Don't you give me that look
You wish you were me
But I've been through hell and back
Then back to hell again
And awaiting the attack
Of two broken swords
Plunged through my flesh
I want it all to end
But in the end I did my best
A spiral of pain, so lost, and so cold
I plan my escape but misery takes its hold
Now there's blood in the water, revolving around
So far in decline, yet I'm still falling down
Life puts me in misery
But I don't mind
The world wants me to feel this
And God gave me a sign
I wasted all my breath
No effort left to give
Just let me succumb to death
When effort's required to live
I can't overreact to over assumption reacting
Baby let me know the truth
Who or what have I been attracting?
I'll burn my cross, I'll shoot the nails
Right through to loss, right through my hands
Suffering and bleeding out until the world understands
I've scoured my mind
Across a thousand years in time
So why can't I find you?
You're left with peace
But no solace left to cease
From me, you don't know what I've been through
Take a minute, leave me with it, let me comprehend
I can't believe what you made me send
The world is ending under us
God I wish I wasn't born
Or maybe just flat out dead
Don't know which is easier
When the river's running red
And life always ends in bloodlust
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5. |
Apocalyptic Crucifixion
05:36
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I found a world between the cracks
So I dove right in, into the black
Saw monsters waiting to attack
But I sought more
My soul requires some precious blood
But none left after the deadly flood
Judgement for those up above
Now washed ashore
There's layers to this mystery
But I can't think so forgive me
For brutally mutilating
Your residents
Now ashes lie in darker skies
We'll kill until it's you and I
Waiting for one of us to die
And I'm not hesitant
Feel my reign, this scope of metal parts
I'll devour your tears
Before I tear you apart
I gotta live and I ran out of fuel
Blood is a drug
Only when hell is full
A victim's game
It pains me to say but
Your hypocrisy alone
Leaves only you to blame
Meaningless comfort
In an ancient text
Can't save you now
Tell the devil I'm coming for him next
The world I is know
Is crumbling to pieces
Feel the rage build slow
Inside my veins, it reaches
Near the highest flow
The agony increases
As I undergo
Apocalyptic crucifixion
Alive to dead to ash to dust
More hollow than the king of lust
No longer in a world of just
Kings and Queens
We're layers deep in this abyss
And yet awareness is still bliss
'Cause I don't think or reminisce
I'm just a machine
I feel your pain, I really do
I feel it healing my wounds too
You can't deny what we've been through
Is just the start
The angels will not take you back
Divided houses cannot stand
Baptized in gore on holy land
The irony is art
I thought you knew me more than this
We fight again deeper in the abyss
What happened to my God?
I fought in your name
But now I revel inside of all their pain
Was I the foolish one all along?
I see your reflection in my ichor
Can't take it anymore
Please let me burn, please let me die
'Cause I'm a godsend, but I'm a maniac
So God bent the judge's wrath
A lost lent discovered, but
The path is gone
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6. |
Graveyard
04:51
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Honey don't you feel me calling you?
Pretty tame to think about me as a fool
I'm more than just a spectre in your mind
But the world will take and give to you
The hell we think you need but baby it's not true
The truth is locked up deep inside your cries
Don't believe everything you hear
You're still a little cannon full of blood and tears
And you know I'll stay here 'til we both die
But I'm waiting for that day patiently
I'm already knees deep in ecstacy
Watching you stray so far from the light
Oh, I'm the villain in your story
Got your pain in mind
The world doesn't have to be so gory
Yet here we are tonight
Oh, I'm the demon on your shoulder
And your life's on sale
The graveyard is calling you
'Cause I'm the mastermind behind
Your grim little fairytale
The battles you face, yeah you're alone
Everybody tells you wrong but in your bones
You know the fact that you still have common sense
None of them know what you've put yourself through
Why do none of them feel the same way that you do?
Maybe it's because you came to their defense
Why so tense? I'm a godsend more than a maniac
I've already won so try and pick up the slack
Embrace me now or forever hold this war
Let me be your guardian
Let me be myself again
There's more that I can do that I couldn't do before
I'm transforming
You know you feel me coursing through your veins
And the world won't know that I'm still controlling
Every little thing you do or say, 'cause baby I'm the-
Embrace the graveyard
Embrace the graveyard
Take my offer dear, and don't you leave me battlescarred
'Cause only god knows what you've put us both through
So lend me a hand, why don't you end me too?
You ought to see life from my point of view
You know you really want to
I'm gonna break apart and take it all 'cause everything you wanna know is
In your head and in control and everything you said it goes for
A way you burn alive to kill a lie and kill a soul and
Everything you wanna know will die with you so no one knows
Got nothing left to hide the shadows are forsaking baby
In your mind the devil's racing, you got no more shades to chase me
You're withered, dying, tethered to a life that ain't worth living
It's the end of you and me we'll die together adversaries
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7. |
The Forsaken Abyss
07:03
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It takes a lot of blunt force
To cause my skin to bleed
One feels excessive remorse
And wants us to be freed
I have a lot of problems
But problems can't be fixed
The devil inside me loves them
Your angel found betwixt, oh
Do you remember when you threw me
Right into the forsaken abyss?
Still alive, waiting violently to give death a kiss
I'll forgive, we can restart, everything you want and more
But I know you'll leave me on the floor
When every word that you say impales my heart,
My shadow's suicide
Harmony collapses out my mind
Take it all, let me die, learn above and above all,
I pray you that you will put me to rest tonight
Why think of me a godsend?
I haven't lived so long
When knife to heart meet again
I catharize to song
This time my words, they warn you
But are you listening?
It's just your choice to be true
When false will leave you glistening, oh
Baby I'm more than losing it
It takes a lot to get me here, but I'll admit
You (Broke me down)
So every time I look at me I want to drown
In the devoid and devoured, so lost and void powered
Watch your six, its my final witching hour
We're both losing control, the envy takes it toll
So emotionless and ready to sell my soul
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8. |
Simple Coincidences
06:58
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My love please look upon me
Take my life as I take your hand
I need someone to notice thee
Between all of these grains of sand
I should be towering high
For I have lived longer than you
But you dragged me from the sky
Down to explore a deeper blue
I've got nothing left to say
The one that says never draws near
Articles of my pain
Reveal in words my darkest fear
My conscience leaves it on display
Rejection never felt so good
Pity the one that thought this day
Would cease to come so soon
Could it be a simple coincidence?
Nothing can numb the pain I feel for this
A liar told me I should hark your lips, beneath a dark eclipse
Waiting for sun to shine, my life no longer mine
I wanna love you more
I saw your scars, those ones I've felt before
As luck would have it I'm going insane, I'm playing your game
And you're still unaware
We search for more than darker truth
We let the love shatter our eyes
Innocence stolen from our youth
Now gone as we prepare to die
I've got a lot to say to you
But not the strength to speak the words
Does one just toy with a fool?
A fool am I to think you heard
Was it your choice to be apace
With hunter's eyes and baited breath?
Every time I see your idle face
I lose my sense and wait for death
These songs are written just for me
Beyond the fourth wall I will wait
Winter catharsis, all I need
Will they reciprocate?
Baby you're at the forefront of my mind
Everything else an afterthought, behind the signs
I have a burning passion driving me from you
The more I think about this, the more sanity I lose
Been in this position many times before
Ancient apparitions forcing me to shore
To forget about you, return to tradition
But for you I'll reject them, let's have a little fun
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9. |
Lament of the Lovestruck
04:58
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Trying to recall when this had begun
Hiding in this nightmare of my own creation
A pain, in vain of what you have built
When your plain ignorance is what got me killed
Your face, it makes me move on my own
I dream for the day I can call it my home
I want to punch glass, and I want it to break
When you fight for your freedom from me and you stand awake
Oh, my wounds they don't heal
Can blood soak through love when the blood isn't real
Reflections of you in my eyes
I always make you smile but you just make me cry
Sometimes I wish I was dead
I feel more comfortable with a gun to my head
Is loneliness fate or just pure bad luck
My life isn't mine when I'm so lovestruck
Wrote 3 deadly letters signed to your name
With blood as ink running from what I became
Softer voices call me below
Don't want to be known as the kid who died 'cause he couldn't let go
Nowhere to escape
The shock I still feel when I see your shape
All of you cry over love lost at sea
While I don't even have someone to break up with me
Pain, lust
No trust
I must
End us
I am want you want
Love, insane or not
Cracked reality
What am I thinking?
I want to protect you, I want you to feel safe
But what if I'm the danger you forcefully face
So alive when I'm next to you but nothing kills me more
Than to start anew and forget what I fight for
Love me (I want us to cry)
Hate me (Get out of my eyes)
Hurt me (Allow me to die)
Help me (Get out of my mind)
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10. |
Carousel
05:10
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Did you realize something or was it just a dream
I still can't accept that you never loved me
Your actions take lessons from what I've already seen
Can I still call you my love if I don't wipe the slate clean?
Your watchful gaze so torturous
You got it wrong, I don't yearn for lust
'Cause I've been told, baby, more than once
To let you go
But I'm still locked in this prison cell
Of a famished mind, not far from hell
Below the grave I ring a bell
To make it known I'm riding on your carousel
(On your carousel)
(I need to get off of your carousel)
None of you know what I've put myself through
Why do none of you feel the same way that I do?
I'm honestly begging, you give me someone soon
Or I'm scared I might, force you to the moon
I'm blaming all my faults on
People that don't even know me
Through and through I still love you
And I'm asking for your pity
I can't forgive myself for trying to start anew
But to this day I find that I'd
Rather kiss a bullet than kiss you
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11. |
Shotgun
06:27
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What really happened to you
So that you couldn't let it go?
Torture working its way
Out your mind, in your soul
They don't know what you went through
They didn't see what you forbid
They can't imagine how it feels
To know you like I did
Pain
It really thinks that I should
Explain
Why I stand on the ground you stood
Chains
Bind my feet to my cursed brain
Can't move can't think can't contain your
Undone shotgun
What have you done?
Burned their images
Into my mind
Your one shotgun
Couldn't outrun
Inspiration
For your demise
For your demise
You think I'm crying for help
What if it's just a metaphor?
Please let me work on myself
Before you come break down my door
I know that I'm a lot to take
I just refuse to hide behind a facade
Try not to be a hard case
And you just end up angering God
There's so much time left in my life
And yet I feel it running out
People always tell me to thrive
They can't see behind my self-doubt
Demons haunt my consciousness
Angels leave me passionless
I'm between the spectres now
So how can I feel meaningless?
I'm walking closer, closer
To the end of the line
The end of the road you took
Becoming mine
Time to regret, to reform my life
After all the threats from the demon inside
I wish I got to know you better
Before the graveyard called you near
I felt this way before, don't lead me
Protect me from my fears
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12. |
Darkest Form of Fury
04:43
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Who would've thought we'd turn out like this?
A fear in the back of my head, I'll admit
But you still thought that they would buy what you sold
Messengers of the lies you told
I returned from my recovering
With a knife in my back and a bleak offering
To ruin lives as you ascend
Who took your soul? Who did I offend?
Could you believe this blessing is a curse?
Like me, did it ever dawn on you that this hurts?
The choir sings and the jesters still dance
And you have the nerve to say no one understands
Yet I still implore you, the darkest form of fury
Is the deliverance of your ignorance
In the low presence of your inhumanity
You made me believe that I'm to blame
All I did was fight the monster you became
Thinking my world's in the palm of your hands
But I built it back up without your commands
Killed me already in your hands I died
Reborn anew, from the fire I rise
Broke apart, its so bizarre how you
Stopped being my ally
So independent, yet you crave so much attention
You misread my intension when I said you wouldn't control me tonight
And when the world is crashing down
I still have those that you've decrowned
Why won't they let you make a sound?
I can't believe after all these years
We'd end up drowning in our tears
A genesis for all my darkest fears
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13. |
Prisms
04:33
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I made my voice heard
Then you closed my eyes
Oh, when will you learn
It's not easier to lie?
We made a mural
You shot it down
And act so feral
When we made a sound
Just let me live my life
Without the pressure to abide
Your sorry little lie
Your pain is mine
I feel a greater joy
Without the need to destroy
We fight a louder voice
Like prisms in the void
Why can't you tolerate
Just a little bit of love?
A world in which hate
Slaughters the dove
I feel so empty
Without a name
So glad I found you
Let's just hope we stay the same
I need you
More than anybody else
It's a battle
With the prisms in my mind
Lying, trying
To believe in my desires
I feel so guilty
And I'm back on your carousel
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14. |
Please Don't Hurt Me
06:54
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This is the end
What message did you send?
You won your game
I'm all the same
And dying in your hands
Sometimes I say "you" but you know I'm talking to myself
I'm past my prime, you got your time
And they all saw my fallout
You couldn't save me with my scars
Our little broken heart to heart
My lowest low, deep down below
The hell we deem an art
I hope you find my remains
These are more than my final days
Your wicked curse, it found me first
So now down here I stay
I can't write enough
To explain myself
With you so rapt
Forever trapped
In a depressed show-and-tell
Felt confident and whole
Before these sins
Then I paid the cost, now I'm just lost
And high off my own endorphins
Do you remember when you threw me right into the forsaken abyss?
Still alive but you know I never wanted this
So broken now, hollowed out and slain
How much of a victim am I if I can't hide the pain?
Wait, I need you by my side
As I wither closer to my demise
Watching me as I go down in flames
One last time I let you take my name
Please Don't Hurt Me
Please Don't Hurt Me
Please Don't Hurt Me
Please Don't Hurt Me
(x4)
Alive without
Your dark light
Hoping I know
That I'm alright
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ThomasKG Minnesota
Independent music/content creator, working in cinematic alternative-style music.
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